Chapter Four
Then I sat on a bench and had a conversation with Fr Ian about providence and God's work through coincidences and my spirits lifted. Later I had a strange sensation in church. The feeling of falling in love and the butterflies which go with it. This I now know to have been a tremor. Because I had others later on. Until something happened two days before I was due to leave. I'd been in the monastery for 38 days. I'd learnt a lot. I'd prayed a lot. It was a fantastic experience which I'd flung myself into passionately. All that was missing was the cherry on the top. A faith which I could draw upon and say 'I believe in this whole God business'. That I couldn't claim.
So with my suitcase virtually packed we started preparing to leave. My attentions were turning towards my life back in London and work. |